Staring at this virtual sheet of paper 
Having no clue where to start 
My mind wanders unfocused 
For this task now I have no heart 

All I can see are all the times I tried 
To help other people move forward 
Not because it was the right thing to do 
But to feed my own ego's hunger 

In effect I became part the problem 
And they sit still rotting at best 
And sliding backwards at worst 
For really I've become a pest! 

You know what?  I can say this without cursing 
Because that's the rules, right?  Well now 
Get off you lazy backside you slob 
And throw me to the hounds 

Let them ripe me to shreds 
Then turn and walk away 
If you don't I'll just drag you down 
For each and every day